A Sunday/Monday I'll never forget

So I didn't get too drunk last night but I did get a little buzzed and I did lose my virginity. Yep, it was...fun. Mark was so sweet last night. He brought me some flowers and that super good Godiva chocolate with the raspberry filling which everyone knows is my favorite and a bottle of champagne. Not like I needed any more. We started out just cuddling after I hugged him for what seemed like forever when I opened the door. He had his arm around my waist and slowly it moved into my jeans he took his finger under my thong strap aleiviating the pressure of it. Then he started to massage the red mark it had left. It felt soooo good. I begged him for more but to retain my non-desperateness I didn't say anything except a few little giggles and a breathy sigh or two. Then he moved his hand over and suddenly he was there. I could feel myself getting wet with anticipation. He could feel it too because he was defintely getting turned on from what I could feel through his Ralph Lauren silky boxers and I could feel something huge. Pretty soon he was on the floor kneeling in front gently kissing my nether regions. Oh my God I didn't think I would ever experience something so pleasureable in my life. Then once I had reached climax I decided that the least I could do would be to return the favor. I very gently took off his boxers and kind of playfully pushed him down on top of my bed. I got on my knees and put the very tip in my mouth. I gently fingered his balls and rubbed his inner thigh. When I looked up at him I could see this complete euphoria in his face. This made me want to go on even more so I started gently sucking on it. Then the sucking got more and more intense and pretty soon he had cum...all over my mouth. It tasted so weird, not a bad weird just kind of a different weird. I could tell he wasn't done yet. I had no idea you could climax more than once in a night. I guess I learned something.
We were exhausted and he laid down on my bed with me Santa-Style sitting on top of him. At this point I was completely naked while he had put his boxers on. I leaned back and whispered in his ear that I wanted more. He was so nice(and horny) he granted me that and I lost my virginity. It was so amazingl it didn't even see possible that such pleasure could be possible. I don't really want to go into too many details about acutually having sex because I feel it will loose some of it's magic, but let's just say it was the best kind of pain I've ever experienced and we did it more than once. That's why I had to call Mom's cell in Europe and have her call me in sick. I fell asleep next to him after the first time feeling very safe then I woke up wanting more and so I had more. I get what I want ;) I just thought I'd update while Mark is sleeping so soundly next to me. Thank God he finished all his case work before we had this little get together.
Better get going
L

Emptiness is a Bitch

I feel so empty. That's why I invited Mark over. That's why I'm on my first glass of champagne and hoping I'll get drunk enough to make the emptiness go away. And that's why I don't think I'll have my virginity in oh about an hour. I feel like I need to belong, like I need to please someone becaues I obviously can't do anything right to please myself. I feel so god damn alone. I miss my friends, I miss Collin I miss my parents I miss being normal old me. I don't know what I've become ever since him. It's amazing how one asshole person can fuck up your life. I mean before then I could barely see myself having a conversation with a person twice my age let alone about to lose somehting I'll only have once to him. My first post was totally wrong. Normal people don't have the fucked up problems I do. Sure I may have loads of money at my disposal but that doesn't mean I'm happy. Not at all. I'd give my life up to some poor, third world kid than have to live this fucked up life I do. I hope I get drunk enough by the time he comes over to not have second thoughts.
l

WTF?!

Okay, Leslie's Dad who we'll call "Mark" called me three times yesterday asking me if I wanted to do something with him. He sounded so depressed that I agreed to meet him for coffee on Monday. I really needed to study for my calc test too and I had to cancel a tutor session with my adorably cute seventh grader. Oh well let's just hope that Starbucks doens't take for-fucking-ever on my coffee tomorrow and Mark doesn't incessantly ramble on for an hour. He's really not to blame though if I hadn't crawled into his bed and cuddled up with him this would have never happened. I just hope Leslie doens't find out. Maybe I should just tell him that we shouldn't meet any more and we should just stop doing stuff. I don't know what the hell to do it's not like I can talk to anyone about this. And it's not like I hate him either, sure he's a little annoying but he's sweet and mature and Brad-Pitt-like hot. I must be the biggest fucking moron ever. I'm also a little afraid to say goodbye because he takes everything to heart. And I don't want him to like commit suicide or go into a deep depression just because I can't see him anymore. This is huge fucking jam. I wish I just had someone to talk to....

Ugh

I just got off my hungover ass to update this. Leslie's party was awesome, too bad I cheated on Collin it's okay though, don't ask don't tell. I still feel like shit. Stupid superbowl why couldn't he just be gone for the weekend of the super bowl instead of the week leading up to it.
Let's see how much I can remember about the party. I remember making out with Erica Valerie and my newest friend Ivy. Turning more than a few guys on. I know I made out with a guy in the hot tub. I rememer throwing up behind the hot tub. Oh and then when everybody had fallen asleep and I had fallen asleep by the guy I cheated on Collin with.for some reason I stumbled into Leslie's dad's wing of the house and I fell asleep cuddled up by him. He's divorced and every time I would see him I could just feel him hungering for the opposite sex. Leslie's dad and I have gotten intiminte more than once so it's not like I'd never done it before. He's so sweet. And then this morning when the mail was delivered I got this adorable diamond teddy bear bracelet from him. I hope he doesn't expect soemthing more from me though. I"m definitely not giving it up to him no matter how much he's lonely or how hot he is. This all makes me sound like a whore. Oh well....
I don't want to go to school on Monday. And I definetely don't want to face Collin next Monday. I think I'll just fess up to him and act super sweet and buy him that Rolex he's had his eye on but hasn't wanted to buy for himself. I feel like crying I mean how much of an asshole can I be? I thought we were meant for eachother but how can that be if I cheat on him and get wasted everytime I get let down by something? I hate myself right now. damn

Damn

Nevermind, forget everything I just said. Collin can't do anything because of the stupid superbowl. He's going over to his Dad's place out of state and is spending the week with him. All because of the super bowl. Grrr... there better not be any hot girls at the superbowl party. I'm kind of pissed. Okay, I'm totally pissed. Oh well, that means I can go to Leslie's party. It should be fun. That way I can get totally wasted and forget. Leslie better let me stay over at her house or else my parents wil get pissed at me. I'M PISSED!!!!!!! Collin didn't even seem that upset. That's what makes me the most mad. Gonna go take shower then pick out an outfit.
~l~

Concentration

It was so hard to concentrate on school today. I couldn't keep my mind off of Collin and the week we're going to have together. It's going to be so much fun. I bought the lingerie and everything I all ready picked the CD that I is so romantic and I picked out a few movies too. Garden State,Old School and Hotel Erotica. That last one I borrowed from Erica. I've even picked out the outfit. I think that we're going to eat somewhre really romantic, I'm not sure which one to eat at though. Then after we have dessert we'll catch a cab to my place and I'll put Garden State in on the the TV in my room, I'll tell him I'll be right back while going to the bathroom and come back in the lingerie. Then we'll um..do it. I'm uber nervous. It should be fun though. Then we'll spend the rest of the week doing much of the same. Yay! It's going to be so much fun.. Just one more day. This time tomorrow I'll be getting ready to go out and eat. I talked to Erica about what her first time was like. She went into great depth. Right down to putting on a condom.
She said that it started out when they'd gotten home after a movie they started making out on the couch. Then her boyfriend looked down on her and asked her if she was ready. She said yes and then he started to undress her and vice versa Erica said she could feel her pussy getting wetter and wetter and more swollen as he pushed his hardening cock agaisnt her. Finally he was inside her and it was a rythmic experieence, he ejaculated into her. She said it wasn't even embarassing. Hopefully it won't be akward or anything..

Thought I'd post again

Hola. So I guess my parents are taking some time off (surprisingly) no, not to stay and do things with me but are going to Europe for about a week because of my mom's birthday. That's A.O.K. with me; more time with Collin. Ooh la la! It's going to be fun I can't wait to cuddle for almost a week. God I love him. Not only that but my mom feels bad (as she should) and bought me a gorgeous new pair of Sevens. I think I'll head over to La Perla(I've had my eye on their new limited edition vintage collection) soon to buy something to wear while cuddling with Collin. Val and Erica already lost their virginity and I feel like such a child around them. Like I'm not quite up to par with them. Not only that but I want to make Collin happy. He's done so much for me I just want to thank him. Who knows though? Life is crazy. Ohhh my dog just hicupped, what a cutie pie! Val and I are going to do something soon too. I wish it was the weekend. Ever since finals I feel like it should be the end of the school year. Homework's gotten really hard. whatever though. Would you guys get pissed if I wrote like that all the time? Your poor vision. Wait, who am I talking to no one's read my blog yet.
~Lacey~
This blogging thing is kind of fun.
I have a feeling I'll be getting a pair of Calvin Stewart jeans from Collin on V-Day. So the lingerie must be extra sexy

Hello

I guess this is my blog. I wastold to start writing in here by my counselor, but what the hell does she know? I told her I'd start one ...so here I am. No, she's not actually going to read it, but she thought it might be therapeutic to start one. I always kept a pen/paper journalthat would always get misplaced. I think I'll be able to keep track of my notebook a little better. I guess I'll just start by telling you about me. I live on fifth avenue during the school year but I also have a winter house in Riviera Beach Florida adn a summer house in the Hamptons. My dad's a real estate developer and my mom is a prominent laywer. My parent's schedules ar epacked and I'm usually at home most of the time by myself. It gets lonely btu I really love my parents and I miss them. Our family does have a really sweet nanny/maid/housekeeper. I have an adorable golden retriever and a mutt I got at the pound after I had walked her and volunteered there. I have an adorable boyfriend who we'll call "Collin." We've been going out for about ayera or so. He's the kind of guy every girl wants. He's hot,sensitive, thoughtful caring but not too smart. His grades have improved though since we've been going out. He's tons better than my last boyfriend "Steve" who was hot and everything but used to do things to me, I still haven't gotten ove rhim completely. I have a pretty good group of friends but none as close as "Erica and "Valerie." ERica nd I have been friends since forever but Valerie adn I haven't been friends quite as long but I still love her! I'm not quite sure what else to say...my life's not quite as exciting as it seems. I'm a straight A student which doens't leave much time for extensive partying but I do like to "let my hair down" on the weekends. I'll write when something comes up.
~Lacey~